I suffer from pretty bad bipolar depression. All I do is work (65 hours a week) and sleep. Once in a blue moon my boyfriend and I will do something together. My therapist told me I need something to look forward to in my free time, a hobby that doesnt cost much. Her ideas were kinda useless, but she does have a point, but my interests are very fine tuned, and if I'm not interested in it, I won't do it.
I've ridden horses for 15 years, even had my own for a mere 3 years but had to give her up because my parents couldnt afford board. Now even though I work 65 hours a week, I make minimum wage, and have bills to pay, and there's no way in hell I can afford board for a horse. I have tried every single stable within a 50 mile radius and cant even find one to let me work for board. I'm also sick and tired of putting time into other people's horses for them to just turn around and screw me over. I do, however, collect toy horses...I'm 20 years old, so what! Anyways, that takes money, which I don't have much of. I like making stuff for them, but again, money for supplies...ugh!!!
Okay, let's move on, interest #2
, reptiles. I have a few pet reptiles (seeing how I can't have a horse). I love them to death, but there's not really much you can do with them? I'd love to do presentations and whatnot with them, but very few people are comfortable with a 20 year old handling a 7 foot boa in a classroom...plus theres a huge liability risk, possibly a business license, etc. It's annoying.
Photography, I don't necessarily love it, but I do like it. I might have an ancient fujifilm camera, but it's better than nothing. Now, what I don't have, is a computer to upload photos on...my laptop crashed a couple weeks ago and I can only use my work computer, but will be changing positions soon and won't have it anymore. So, that doesn't really help me much...
I like mudding, but again, too poor to have my own quad or dirtbike. My boyfriends quad has been blown up for a year and he's too lazy to fix it, I can't afford to fix it, and he's afraid I'll get hurt riding his dirtbike...my therapist suggested I go along and watch him ride with his friends...I tried to explain to her that I'd be sitting in the truck for 2 hours watching nothing because there's miles of trails, not just a single pit.
I absolutely love fishing, but refuse to go by myself (for various reasons) and it's just no fun. My boyfriend and I's work schedules usually clash, so we usually can't go together often. We went maybe 3 times this year. And, I have very few friends. I have pretty bad social anxiety, so making friends isn't easy, at all. And I'm really specific with who I want to go with. Some people I can tolerate, some I can't. My solution to this was to get a dog...I would absolutely LOVE to have a dog to keep me company while fishing, BUT I live with my boyfriend and his parents...they said no -.-
So, I apologize for such a long post, but I'm at a loss. I'm very limited with what I can do. I'm also very picky, even though I try not to be. I'be tried other hobbies, social events, etc...but I usually find that even though I'm trying to have fun, I'm quite miserable. I'm not the social type. Any ideas at all that aren't the usual: exercise, hike, draw, etc, etc....just no.